The end

"This is it. I want to go home." He didn't even look at me when he spoke. And I didn't have any more tears.

And we left Hvar. We returned our ferry tickets to Anconca, Italy (minus about 300 kronas and a few dreams) and headed back to Smederevo, Serbia to B's home.

Riding a motorcycle with your ex isn't as hard as I thought. It gave me time to think.

This wasn't working as it was.

I know it will read childish, but I really love him and I hope the universe will bring us back together. And it will be better, because I will be me and he will be him and that will be what both of us want.

For now, I'm in the upstairs of B's parent's house, trying to figure out what to do next (with my life).

Options:
1. Stay in Belgrade until August when my plane ticket home is. Pros: learn some Serbian, buy some souvenirs, be close to B. Cons: expensive, lonely, possibly isolating, living as the single girl traveler in a hostel in summer when I have a nice bed in Miami Beach, too close to B.

2. Leave for Miami Beach ASAP: Pros: friends, beach, no work, time to re-group myself. Cons: "our place" is no more and won't feel like home, and I need to find a new place to live, and moving in summer in Miami sucks, and I have to deal with all that when I get back to Miami Beach so avoidance seems more appealing.

3. Travel around Europe: Pros: sounds exciting and cosmopolitan, I'm already here so wouldn't be as expensive as coming back and I don't have a schedule, new experiences. Cons: lonely, costs money, and would feel empty after traveling with B for the past month.

4. Move to Canada and start new life with Carolyn. Pros: would be different, and Carolyn is my best friend and she's a good cook and roommate. Cons: she said I could only have an outside dog, and I have no job there, and it would be running away.

5. ???